The case for shameful fantasies

It's National Masturbation Month -- but what we really need to loosen up about is our erotic imagination

Topics: Sex, Love and Sex, Pornography,

The case for shameful fantasies(Credit: Photographer: Ugurhan Betin)

It’s National Masturbation Month, which feels like it should be worthy of comment — especially given that I’m on the “sex beat.” But writing in defense of masturbation is so incredibly passe; it hardly seems a practice in need of month-long activism. Most of us have left behind the pathologizing Christine O’Donnells of the world and abandoned the mythology of hairy palms and blindness. Pornography, the No. 1 sign of solo loving, is in no short supply — and for the very low price of free. Even the title, National Masturbation Month, sounds like a relic from a priggish past — one before the Rabbit became a household name. Cheap vibrators are now stocked at neighborhood drug stores and diamond-encrusted numbers are available in boutique sex shops. Porn and dildos have been democratized — power to the people!

So, now what?

Well, we could stand to work on our uneasy relationship with that thing behind masturbation: fantasy. There may be unprecedented access to pre-packaged, quick-hit titillation and expert guidance on the bodily mechanics of personal pleasure, but the American erotic imagination is still congested with political correctness and shame. Masturbation has by no means conquered all social taboos — will it ever, really? — but when it comes to fantasy, we could all use some loosening up.

When I’ve inquired about my partners’ fantasies, it’s often scared the crap out of them. Want to make a man stutter in bed? Ask him to describe the peaks and valleys of his personal erotic landscape. Men aren’t used to talking about these things — except for when it’s in the course of an emotional interrogation (i.e. “So you like fake boobs, then, huh?”). It’s fascinating, though, to see how a person’s character and life experiences influence the private realm of fantasy. There’s tremendous vulnerability and intimacy in sharing these things — like a cat rolling over to show you its belly.

I can’t tell you how often I have encountered or gotten emails from men who are distressed by their socially unacceptable fantasies. They insist that they have no desire to pursue such encounters in real life, but they worry about the fact that this imagery has taken up residence in their mind. These are guys who identify as straight but occasionally like to imagine sexual encounters with other men, or who find themselves returning to the thought of sex with a teenage girl. Then there is the occasional woman with a rape or submission fantasy, which studies have shown are incredibly common.



The truth is, as I wrote in my recent piece on what Internet searches reveal about human desire, there are a lot of unsavory, politically incorrect aspects to our sexual imaginations. These shadowy caves of the sexual psyche tend to reveal fundamental inner conflicts and can be at odds with our public personae. But it’s most important to recognize that these scenarios are frequently things we don’t want to experience in reality. Plenty of things are titillating as ideas but repulsive, or at least disappointing, in reality. Fantasies are like dreams — they aren’t right or wrong; they just are.

Of course, some erotic imaginings could tip one off to a buried psychological trauma or disturbance. It’s true that researchers have found that fantasies about sexual offenses are common among sex offenders. But within the population at large, “forbidden” sexual imagery and submission-dominance are among the most common fantasies. A 1974 study found that “doing things sexually that you would never do in reality, and being forced or forcing someone to have sex” were among the most popular imagined scenarios among both men and women.

The whole reality-fantasy line gets blurred when it comes to pornography, which is part of why debates about it are so contentious; these are scenarios brought to life by real people. Underneath all the arguments about the industry and objectification, exploitation and cultural influence, though, there is often a fundamental disagreement with the fact that these acted-out fantasies exist in the first place. That sort of resistance to reality — and to the distinction between fact and imagination — deserves conquering; and sex will be better for it, whether you’re partnered or alone.

Tracy Clark-Flory

Tracy Clark-Flory is a staff writer at Salon. Follow @tracyclarkflory on Twitter and Facebook.

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