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Saturday afternoon, Sept. 11

Dessert with Matt was a romantic antidote to Eileen's troubling observations -- despite the question crossing my mind from time to time: "What would he say if he found out?" I couldn't quite shake it no matter how I tried.

Like two naughty kids, Matt and I sat on my bed, sipping champagne and nibbling on pastries. I have about a dozen extra sheets -- I use them to protect my personal bedclothes when a client comes over -- and I had opened a fresh one to use as a kind of picnic blanket with Matt. So we were having our midnight snack on a clean sheet that I've used many times with various johns. Nervy maybe, but I had a strange thought: Even though I'm lying to my boyfriend about my work, this is my way of sharing my hidden life with him -- a private romantic gesture.

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"You're so organized," Matt remarked playfully. "Your bed's always perfectly made up."

This brought me back to reality -- his reality. I was startled and made a mental note to look less organized -- perhaps I should unmake my bed, to appear more natural, more normal?

"I just like to keep things neat," I said, unable to stop myself from picking up a stray pastry crumb. Could excessive tidiness give my game away? I've always noticed that people in the straight world aren't quite so fastidious as working girls.

"So," he asked, toying with my bra strap and slipping it down against my shoulder. "What kind of trouble is your friend in? Which one of your mysterious girlfriends is it this time?"

As we sat in the candlelight, it was Eileen's hypothetical comment (not her present problem with Tom Winters) that came back to me: What would Matt say if he knew what I really do? Would there be an ugly, insulting break-up with lots of name-calling? Or would he, like some guys, just go silent and brood for weeks on end?

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