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We sat in silence for a while, looking at the city below. The stark desert hills pushed up in the distance, nestling the crowded community in their shadows. Houses spilled down the lower flanks of the hills, then condensed in thick clusters of white, pink and blue.
"Forget it," Manuel said at last. "Let's go, before it gets dark."
That evening, Manuel and I ventured out to a late-night pizzeria. Along the way, we ran into a group of students he knew and stopped to say hello. One of them was a young man with a long ponytail carrying a guitar, and the two of us began to walk absent-mindedly down the middle of the road, talking quietly together.
The streets were dark and mostly deserted. Our footsteps echoed on the stone walls around us, creating the sensation of eerie isolation, and our voices seemed too loud in the stillness of the air. As we approached the well-lit pizzeria, there was a sudden shout from the shadows to our right, just beyond the line of parked cars. We stopped and saw Manuel emerge into the light. He had provoked a verbal confrontation with another man, though I couldn't hear what they were saying. The stranger hurled obscenities at Manuel as he made his way up the street to catch up to us. I said goodbye to the young musician, and Manuel and I entered the restaurant.
The place was empty except for a young couple, just getting up from one of the plastic tables inside. A woman was sweeping the floor as if she was getting ready to close, yet said nothing when we entered and found a seat. We were both famished, and Manuel, who wanted to treat, ordered the largest pizza on the menu.
"What were you arguing about out there?" I asked him when the waitress had gone.
"You didn't even see it, did you?" he said incredulously, shaking his head.
"What?" I asked, oblivious. "I didn't see what?"
"My God, Diana, you were almost robbed at knife-point!" he almost yelled. I had no idea what he was talking about but felt a shiver crawl up my back. I sat in stunned silence.
"There was a guy with a knife between two cars who was waiting for the two of you to come up the street. Up ahead there were two more guys. That's the way they work. One holds you up and, if there's a problem, the others come running in to back him up. I came up from behind and distracted him so you got away. Now, what will you do next time?" He picked up the salt shaker and rolled it between his hands, shaking his head again. "You are out of your mind for doing this trip alone. You'll never make it." His voice was a gruff whisper, yet I felt myself shrink back as if he were yelling. The doubt he had expressed earlier in my ability to travel alone now seemed validated.
"I was almost robbed?" I said into the air, as if to myself. "Just now?"
Manuel looked at me and sighed a deep, exasperated inhalation and release through the nose, as if preparing to give me a lecture long coming.
"Mira, Diana ..." he began. "You see how you are innocent? It's like this ridiculous bag you Americans strap around your waists, announcing yourselves to the thieves. Look at this. They could have taken everything you have. What sense is there in carrying all of this with you anyway?" He lifted up my black leather fanny pack, dangling sheepishly from my waist, and let it fall in disgust. He stopped for a moment, and we sat there in awkward silence. I began to feel ridiculous. Ridiculous for ever believing that I could survive such a trip on my own. I sat quietly, looking down at the table, humiliated. My eyes burned, wanting to cry, and I could see Manuel's hands trembling with emotion. Something that had been dormant inside of him was now coming to life, and he was shaken. He began again.
"Do you have any idea what it's like to grow up on the streets like a dog, too young and angry to beg, but too hungry to keep your dignity?" His voice began to quiver with indignation, and his eyes glazed over with bitter nostalgia. Our worlds had suddenly polarized. My head was throbbing, and the air felt oppressively thick with emotion. But all I could do was sit paralyzed at his side, waiting for the diatribe to roll over me like a landslide.
"When my father died, we had nothing. My mother had nothing to put on the table, and my brothers and I had to go out and fend for ourselves. You don't have any idea what that's like!" His words tapered into a flat, muffled whisper that shuddered with the convulsions of his lungs. I watched his face loosen and fall apart like melting wax. His eyes were blurred with tears, which made me break down and cry. We sat weeping helplessly together.
"I know what can happen to you because I've done it to others," he said at the edge of his breath. "I can see that you're a target because I used to look for them. I don't justify their violence, Diana, but people have to eat. I know what it's like to be desperate. I know what it's like to take from others. I know enough to tell you not to try to fight them. They will use their knives, you know, even if you are a woman. They'll probably do worse. Without dignity, people lose their sense of humanity. But, my God, you've got to understand what it's like on the streets." His face was soaked and shiny with tears, and his mouth was stretched back and contorted. The force of his sobs shook his body, and the bulging veins in his neck trembled as he heaved at the air.
The waitress approached us in halting steps, confused by the two late-night clients who had happily ordered a pizza and now sat wailing at the cheap, plastic table like something out of a Mexican soap opera. We both pulled napkins from the holder and began to dry our faces and blow our noses as she placed a thin, frozen-style pizza in front of us. The intensity around us had been stirred and began to dissipate slowly. We sat quietly for several minutes, looking down at the pizza that neither one of us really wanted anymore. Manuel's strange confessions seemed to vibrate in the silence, and we shifted awkwardly, still sniffling and hiccuping and wiping at our eyes. Manuel took in a long, deliberate breath through his nose, released it slowly through his mouth, and began to speak in a calm, rational voice, as if he had suddenly changed characters in a one-man street performance.
"Don't tell anyone that you're traveling alone," he said. "Buy a ring to wear and show proudly to others. Speak loudly about your husband being on his way so that everyone knows a man is close by. Know who is in front of you and who walks behind you at all times. Know that the police will not help you any more than the thieves. Understand the poverty of my people and the temptation of the tourists with their expensive clothes and money belts. Just try to understand. Try to see."
That night, as I lay in bed in my closet-size hotel room, I felt farther from home than I'd ever been. I listened to music on my Walkman and cried quietly in the dark. Manuel was right: I was careless, and the incident had created a chasm between us. He saw me as hopelessly removed from the reality of his past and his people, and I saw him as unnervingly real.
Although only a few days had passed since I'd left home, I had already, in some way, been drastically changed. I now pictured myself alone and vulnerable, teetering gracelessly through a land of hungry people who would never see past my white skin and money belt. And for the first time I wondered if I would ever make it home.
The next morning, before 6 o'clock, instead of preparing to go down to the plaza to meet Manuel, I crawled out of bed and packed my bag. I turned in my key, paid my bill and called a cab. At the terminal, I bought a ticket for the first bus going toward the Pacific Coast, hoping to find my strength by the calm of the sea.
As the bus lumbered onto the highway and began to pick up speed, I felt a draining sense of relief, as if fleeing a place of madness. I turned to watch the towering domes and spires of Guanajuato shrink in the distance until they were swallowed up by the hills. Though my self-confidence was badly bruised, I would have to recover. Innocent or not, I wouldn't go home until the trip was over, and the wedding ring would have to wait.
SALON | Dec. 9, 1998
Diane Weipert is a freelance writer who lives in San Francisco.


	T A B L E_T A L K How do you save money when you travel? Share your tips for being a thrifty tourist in the Wanderlust area of Table Talk ___________________ Search BarnesandNoble.com for more tales of Mexico ___________________ R E C E N T L Y The cruise cocoon By Zachary Karabell A guest lecturer on a luxury Aegean voyage asks: Is this any way to see the world? (12/08/98) Desperately seeking e-mail By Lisa Dreier Finding Internet access in India is feasible, but not for the fainthearted (12/06/98) This week in travel Wanderlust's select guide to the top travel-related news stories from around the globe (12/04/98) In the driver's seat By Dawn MacKeen The smart alternative to renting, driveaways let you take someone else's car cross-country -- for free (12/03/98) At home in Tuscany By Ferenc Máté The slow-paced pleasures of rural Italy come to life for two new residents (12/02/98) Browse the Wanderlust Feature archives Wanderlust's Official Travel Book Partner		MIMING MEXICO \| PAGE 1, 2 - - - - - - - - - - We sat in silence for a while, looking at the city below. The stark desert hills pushed up in the distance, nestling the crowded community in their shadows. Houses spilled down the lower flanks of the hills, then condensed in thick clusters of white, pink and blue. "Forget it," Manuel said at last. "Let's go, before it gets dark." That evening, Manuel and I ventured out to a late-night pizzeria. Along the way, we ran into a group of students he knew and stopped to say hello. One of them was a young man with a long ponytail carrying a guitar, and the two of us began to walk absent-mindedly down the middle of the road, talking quietly together. The streets were dark and mostly deserted. Our footsteps echoed on the stone walls around us, creating the sensation of eerie isolation, and our voices seemed too loud in the stillness of the air. As we approached the well-lit pizzeria, there was a sudden shout from the shadows to our right, just beyond the line of parked cars. We stopped and saw Manuel emerge into the light. He had provoked a verbal confrontation with another man, though I couldn't hear what they were saying. The stranger hurled obscenities at Manuel as he made his way up the street to catch up to us. I said goodbye to the young musician, and Manuel and I entered the restaurant. The place was empty except for a young couple, just getting up from one of the plastic tables inside. A woman was sweeping the floor as if she was getting ready to close, yet said nothing when we entered and found a seat. We were both famished, and Manuel, who wanted to treat, ordered the largest pizza on the menu. "What were you arguing about out there?" I asked him when the waitress had gone. "You didn't even see it, did you?" he said incredulously, shaking his head. "What?" I asked, oblivious. "I didn't see what?" "My God, Diana, you were almost robbed at knife-point!" he almost yelled. I had no idea what he was talking about but felt a shiver crawl up my back. I sat in stunned silence. "There was a guy with a knife between two cars who was waiting for the two of you to come up the street. Up ahead there were two more guys. That's the way they work. One holds you up and, if there's a problem, the others come running in to back him up. I came up from behind and distracted him so you got away. Now, what will you do next time?" He picked up the salt shaker and rolled it between his hands, shaking his head again. "You are out of your mind for doing this trip alone. You'll never make it." His voice was a gruff whisper, yet I felt myself shrink back as if he were yelling. The doubt he had expressed earlier in my ability to travel alone now seemed validated. "I was almost robbed?" I said into the air, as if to myself. "Just now?" Manuel looked at me and sighed a deep, exasperated inhalation and release through the nose, as if preparing to give me a lecture long coming. "Mira, Diana ..." he began. "You see how you are innocent? It's like this ridiculous bag you Americans strap around your waists, announcing yourselves to the thieves. Look at this. They could have taken everything you have. What sense is there in carrying all of this with you anyway?" He lifted up my black leather fanny pack, dangling sheepishly from my waist, and let it fall in disgust. He stopped for a moment, and we sat there in awkward silence. I began to feel ridiculous. Ridiculous for ever believing that I could survive such a trip on my own. I sat quietly, looking down at the table, humiliated. My eyes burned, wanting to cry, and I could see Manuel's hands trembling with emotion. Something that had been dormant inside of him was now coming to life, and he was shaken. He began again. "Do you have any idea what it's like to grow up on the streets like a dog, too young and angry to beg, but too hungry to keep your dignity?" His voice began to quiver with indignation, and his eyes glazed over with bitter nostalgia. Our worlds had suddenly polarized. My head was throbbing, and the air felt oppressively thick with emotion. But all I could do was sit paralyzed at his side, waiting for the diatribe to roll over me like a landslide. "When my father died, we had nothing. My mother had nothing to put on the table, and my brothers and I had to go out and fend for ourselves. You don't have any idea what that's like!" His words tapered into a flat, muffled whisper that shuddered with the convulsions of his lungs. I watched his face loosen and fall apart like melting wax. His eyes were blurred with tears, which made me break down and cry. We sat weeping helplessly together. "I know what can happen to you because I've done it to others," he said at the edge of his breath. "I can see that you're a target because I used to look for them. I don't justify their violence, Diana, but people have to eat. I know what it's like to be desperate. I know what it's like to take from others. I know enough to tell you not to try to fight them. They will use their knives, you know, even if you are a woman. They'll probably do worse. Without dignity, people lose their sense of humanity. But, my God, you've got to understand what it's like on the streets." His face was soaked and shiny with tears, and his mouth was stretched back and contorted. The force of his sobs shook his body, and the bulging veins in his neck trembled as he heaved at the air. The waitress approached us in halting steps, confused by the two late-night clients who had happily ordered a pizza and now sat wailing at the cheap, plastic table like something out of a Mexican soap opera. We both pulled napkins from the holder and began to dry our faces and blow our noses as she placed a thin, frozen-style pizza in front of us. The intensity around us had been stirred and began to dissipate slowly. We sat quietly for several minutes, looking down at the pizza that neither one of us really wanted anymore. Manuel's strange confessions seemed to vibrate in the silence, and we shifted awkwardly, still sniffling and hiccuping and wiping at our eyes. Manuel took in a long, deliberate breath through his nose, released it slowly through his mouth, and began to speak in a calm, rational voice, as if he had suddenly changed characters in a one-man street performance. "Don't tell anyone that you're traveling alone," he said. "Buy a ring to wear and show proudly to others. Speak loudly about your husband being on his way so that everyone knows a man is close by. Know who is in front of you and who walks behind you at all times. Know that the police will not help you any more than the thieves. Understand the poverty of my people and the temptation of the tourists with their expensive clothes and money belts. Just try to understand. Try to see." That night, as I lay in bed in my closet-size hotel room, I felt farther from home than I'd ever been. I listened to music on my Walkman and cried quietly in the dark. Manuel was right: I was careless, and the incident had created a chasm between us. He saw me as hopelessly removed from the reality of his past and his people, and I saw him as unnervingly real. Although only a few days had passed since I'd left home, I had already, in some way, been drastically changed. I now pictured myself alone and vulnerable, teetering gracelessly through a land of hungry people who would never see past my white skin and money belt. And for the first time I wondered if I would ever make it home. The next morning, before 6 o'clock, instead of preparing to go down to the plaza to meet Manuel, I crawled out of bed and packed my bag. I turned in my key, paid my bill and called a cab. At the terminal, I bought a ticket for the first bus going toward the Pacific Coast, hoping to find my strength by the calm of the sea. As the bus lumbered onto the highway and began to pick up speed, I felt a draining sense of relief, as if fleeing a place of madness. I turned to watch the towering domes and spires of Guanajuato shrink in the distance until they were swallowed up by the hills. Though my self-confidence was badly bruised, I would have to recover. Innocent or not, I wouldn't go home until the trip was over, and the wedding ring would have to wait. SALON \| Dec. 9, 1998 Diane Weipert is a freelance writer who lives in San Francisco.