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Thursday, Apr 22, 1999 10:00 AM UTC1999-04-22T10:00:00Zl, M j, Y g:i A T

Misfits who don't kill

Outcasts who grew up without resorting to violence talk about what kept them from a Littleton-style massacre

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Odd boys out
By Russell Morse

Freaks. Outcasts. Weirdos. These words are now casually thrown around by Columbine High School students in reference to the two boys who opened fire, killing 12 of their classmates and one of their teachers. One girl dismissed all the taunting and name calling they endured as “just stupid teenage stuff.”

But for many of us who’ve been viewed as square pegs in round holes — and tormented for it — it’s been enough to prompt the fantasy of killing our tormentors. I remember sitting in biology class trying to figure out how much plastic explosive it might take to reduce the schoolhouse — my biggest source of fear and anxiety — to rubble. I scowled at those who teased me, and I had fantasies of them begging me for mercy, maybe even with a gun in their mouths. Those visions of having power and control over them excited me.

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Russell Morse is a writer for Pacific News Service in San Francisco.  More Russell Morse

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Thursday, Mar 13, 1997 8:00 PM UTC1997-03-13T20:00:00Zl, M j, Y g:i A T

SALON Daily Clicks: Newsreal

Preoccupation with the gangsta life became a self-fulfilling prophecy for the top rapper from each coast.

first off, R.I.P. to Christopher Wallace BKA (better known as) Notorious B.I.G., age 24, a talented young man who died senselessly Sunday at the hands of someone who was most likely the same color as he.

Everyone knew it was true when we first heard rumors he was dead. “Aye! Somebody just killed that fool Biggie Smalls!”

“Damn!” was the only reply.

Despite their similarities, the two, B.I.G., also called Biggie Smalls, and Tupac Shakur feuded furiously — in songs, in interviews and in person, pulling guns, traps, setups. All heaven and earth knows Tupac accused B.I.G. of being the attacker in the first attempt on his life in 1994 and spent much of the rest of his career trying to humiliate the “Notorious” one.