[Read "The Case of the Overrated Mystery Novel" by Ben Yagoda.]
My father used to tell me never to trust anyone who says never. As in Ben Yagoda saying he’s off mystery books for good after deciding through his own first-person research that today’s mystery novels don’t cut it against the glorious past of Raymond Chandler and Ross Macdonald. No one would argue that Macdonald and Chandler are the standard by which most of us mystery writers strive, but to denounce the category completely is the same sort of self-righteous snobbery that ghettoized the genre in the first place. There is a lot of crappy detective/mystery fiction out there. A lot. But there’s plenty that is good and wonderful and of literary import. Yagoda doesn’t see anything of value because he’s obviously not looking for it.
– E.M. Cosin
[E.M. Cosin is the author of "Zen and the City of Angels" and "Zen and the Art of Murder."]
No wonder Ben Yagoda is fed up. He needs to look past the airport racks once in a while. A few gems to seek out: Joe Lansdale’s Hap & Leonard series (East Texas good ol’ boys, except one’s black, gay and tough as hell, and the other’s a self-doubting hippie karate expert; their crime-fighting tends to be accidental and less than strictly legal); Dan Simmons’ Joe Kurtz novels, “Hardcase,” “Hard Freeze” and “Hard as Nails” (think Parker from the Richard Stark novels, except younger and slightly less sociopathic); and, if you can find it, Ken Layne’s crime thriller/media satire, “Dot Con.” There’s a lot more out there, but that’s just off the top of my head.
– Jim Treacher
“Yagoda is full of baloney,” I said to the blonde.
“Really, sport?” She gave me a slow half-wink.
“Heck, yeah,” I grunted. “There are at least three mystery writers — and I’m talking post-Chandler now — who are still worth their salt.
“Like who, sport?” She was stroking my cheek now, standing in close. “Is this really so important?” she breathed.
“You bet it is,” I said, pushing her away. “First there’s John D. MacDonald, one of the finest craftsmen who ever plied the trade; you read his Travis McGee to learn how to do it. Then there’s Elmore Leonard. Sure, the plots are fluff; but when he’s on his game, the dialogue is more real than real life.”
“Dig it,” she whispered, and tried to kiss me. I moved my face away.
“And James Lee Burke — where does Yagoda get off dissing Dave Robicheaux? The guy is a true male archetype of our times. And the way Burke writes about Louisiana is somehow sensuously beautiful –”
“Yeah,” she said, “like me,” and kissed me.
Her lips were soft. A little too soft. “– but it never skimps on the ugliness and violence that pervades his world there,” I finished, and took a quick step backward.
She had the knife in her hand, the hand that had been behind my back.
I shot her, twice. Two little red-rimmed holes. Her expression hardly changed as she went down.
What a world. I hated to do it. But it was the only way I was going to get a chance to sit back down and finish “Jolie Blon’s Bounce,” and still have time to take another look at “Glitz” and “The Turquoise Lament.”
And a guy’s got to do what a guy’s got to do.
– Chuck Fager
[Chuck Fager is the author of "Murder Among Friends," "Un-Friendly Persuasion" and other books.]
Gee, Ben, I don’t disagree with your take on the mystery novel, but I hate to be left out. I haven’t written a lot of novels or won a bunch of prizes, but I think my books stand nicely next to Chandler and Macdonald. Give us guys on the side a chance to be included. Or insulted.
– James Crumley
[James Crumley is the author of "The Final Country," "Bordersnakes," "The Mexican Tree Duck" and other novels.]
Ben Yagoda’s scathing indictment of the current crime and detective fiction genre struck me as curiously self-serving. Yagoda outlined his case against this current crop of writers by selectively “cherry-picking” evidence to support his case like he was Dick Cheney’s chief of staff, running a shadow intelligence operation out of the Office of the Vice President. To wit:
How can any discussion of detective fiction that claims “it all started” with Raymond Chandler proceed with even a modicum of credibility and not even mention Dashiell Hammett? Championing Chandler without referencing Hammett is the literary equivalent of stating that Raymond Carver “invented” minimalism, forgetting completely about a man named Ernest Hemingway. Reasonable people can argue the relative merits of both sets of writers, but one cannot credibly argue on any level that Hammett and Hemingway should not be included in the discussion.
Furthermore, Yagoda gratuitously includes Elmore Leonard in his discussion (apparently because he doesn’t think much of him), claiming that his main characters are serialized enough to warrant inclusion. But if you are going to include Leonard, then I think you have to include George V. Higgins and, particularly, James Ellroy, both of whom are far superior writers than virtually everyone on Yagoda’s hit list. Higgins’ first novel, “The Friends of Eddie Coyle,” can stand “toe to toe” — to steal Hemingway’s favorite comparative metaphor — with anything Macdonald or Chandler wrote.
Lastly, how can Yagoda claim to “have read them all” and not mention Walter Mosley? So by omission, Yagoda lumps Ellroy, Mosley and Higgins in with Robert Parker and Michael Connelly? Come on. As we’ve seen with our current administration, credibility is diminished exponentially when facts that don’t fit your thesis are simply omitted.
– Robert Haswell
I cannot believe that Ben Yagoda’s article stating that “the American detective novel … is devoid of creative or artistic interest” is on the same site that features Charles Taylor, who is the only writer I see these days that has any interest in elevating the modern mystery novel from the realm of fiction to that of literature. I have loved Taylor’s interviews with Val McDermid and essays on the merits of the modern mystery, but reading Yagoda’s excellent article I couldn’t help wondering: If Yagoda and Taylor ever see each other at a bar or in the Salon offices, are they going to fistfight?
– Russell Mead
So Yagoda’s complaint is that few contemporary mystery novelists are geniuses. That’s brilliant. Neil Simon isn’t Shakespeare. Sebastian Junger isn’t Herman Melville. You get the idea.
– John McCloskey
It’s unfortunate that Yagoda, in making such a sweeping appraisal on the state of the mystery novel, refers to such a narrow group of best-selling mystery novelists. While it’s clear that his attack is on the “big guns” of the genre, his implication is that the modern mystery novel in general is overrated and that mystery novels today pale in comparison to the classics of the genre. He really needs to look deeper into the genre and he’ll discover some outstanding writers who don’t get the six-figure advances but who challenge the genre in new and exciting ways. Perhaps it’s the public’s current preference for mystery novels and the way these books are marketed that are the real issues, and not the state of the mystery novel itself. It’s also unforgivable that Yagoda lumps Elmore Leonard into this group of mystery writers, as Mr. Leonard, by his own admission, is a crime writer, and has never had a private eye protagonist.
– Jason Starr
[Jason Starr is the author of "Hard Feelings," "Tough Luck," the forthcoming "Twisted City" and other novels.]
I read Ben Yagoda’s article “The Case of the Overrated Mystery Novel” with a great degree of amusement, though probably not the kind the author intended. I could not agree more with his assertion that virtually all of the current authors recognized as being at the top of the motley heap of today’s genre are greatly overrated. They are — and I’ve never figured out why some of us rise to the top and some of us don’t, when 90 percent of us all write at the same level (which is to say, competently enough, but without much originality of voice or subject). God knows Yagoda is also right about the mutual literary masturbation that goes on today in the form of author quotes. That’s why you won’t see my name on more than three books (all quotes given early in my career) and why I refuse to ask any of my many author friends for blurbs. Frankly, I think begging them to buy me a drink seems a much better use of all of our energies.
To take Yagoda’s earth-shattering discovery that choosing a book because of its blurbs leads to nothing but disappointment as a basis for declaring that “the American detective novel may be commercially viable, but it is devoid of creative or artistic interest” is just plain idiotic. Just because Yagoda is too clueless to know that marketing forces drive what books are displayed on most bookstore shelves today — and that literary merit exists only in a handful of dusty tomes championed by your ever-optimistic independent bookstore owner — does not mean that our genre is devoid of original, evocative and astonishingly relevant books. Don’t blame all of us, dude, if you’re too lazy to get out there and find them.
I am not the least bit surprised Yagoda hasn’t run into a truly good crime fiction book by a contemporary author. I’m surprised any get published at all. As I told another writer friend recently, editors buy you because you’re different — and then they spend the rest of your career trying to turn you into everyone else.
Why are there so many bad books out there? For starters, because very few people in this business — not editors, not bookstore owners and not even readers — seem to have the patience, time or willingness to read a book for its merit. Everyone wants a hook, an instant marketing label, a neat category to fulcrum an author into so that they can make the buy-or-pass decision and then move on to the next book in a never-ending quest for the next Big Thing. And no one wants to take a chance on something truly good, because then it would be too different.
Secondly, not one reader in 100 these days really wants a good book that makes them think. We live in a dumbed-down country filled with people raised on the mediocrity of television who want to remain blissfully stupid yet are driven by an overwhelming need to assure themselves that they are not stupid. They don’t want a book that makes them think too much, or examine their feelings too closely or, worse yet, look inward at their own apathy and their role in how the world around them has evolved. They want entertainment, they want a way to kill time, they want their shallow views validated with shallow prose, they want to experience faux-emotions as quickly as possible (which means they damn sure don’t want subtlety) and they want a nice twist at the end so that they can imagine they’ve guessed it before their co-workers or neighbors did. They want to be able to finish a book and say, “Aha! I knew who it was 40 pages before the end!” (Yeah, you genius, you and 70 million other people!)
Yagoda seems to find it discouraging to be a crime fiction reader these days. Hell, he should try being a crime fiction writer. More specifically, he should try being a writer who is dismayed with the quality of the genre — just as he is — and who despairs at the literally dozens of mediocre titles published each month that only serve to obscure the rare good ones. He should try telling himself every day that the measure of a good writer is not in how many copies he or she sells, but in how well you connect with your own world of readers and truly get your message across.
It’s almost impossible to sell a book that takes a distinct stand on our society as Chandler did. And then, once you do manage to sell it — when sales verify that not too many people really want to read such a book — it’s damn near impossible to keep writing good ones. It takes walking away from once-a-year, multiple book contracts; it takes rejecting virtually every measurement of success treasured by peers you respect; and it takes a hell of a lot of guts to declare that you are simply going to write the best book you can write and who the hell cares how many copies you sell? Yet doing that is the only way you’re going to buck the marketing juggernaut that dumbs us all down and the only way you’ll ever produce a truly good book.
There are some crime fiction authors trying to do that right now. My book club here in Durham, N.C., discovers such authors all the time. But we do not discover them by reading blurbs. We do it by actually opening the cover of a book and reading a sample chapter of it, or going online and asking other intelligent people for recommendations, or heading out to consult our local librarians because, God bless them, they may be the only people in the book business left to whom literary merit actually counts.
I could tell Yagoda who some of these authors are, but as punishment for that cheap shot he took at S.J. Rozan, I’m not going to. As penance, I think he deserves to do the work for himself. You see, I hang out with the same guys S.J. hangs out with and I’ve got some bad news for the faint of heart among us: Yes, goddamnit, they do talk that way.
– Katy Munger
[Katy Munger is the author of "Better Off Dead," "Bad to the Bone," "Money to Burn" and other novels. She reviews mysteries for the Washington Post.]
Ben Yagoda’s article on the modern crime novel mentions a number of acclaimed crime novelists (including Dennis Lehane, George P. Pelecanos and Robert Crais) without indicating that he’s actually read them. I’d like to publish an article in which I say, “I tried something by that DeLillo and that Rushdie and that Franzen, and I didn’t like them. Modern literary novels by such writers as Jeffrey Eugenides, Margaret Atwood and Michael Chabon are also not worth my time. They have blurbed some authors I didn’t like, who have won some awards. Hemingway did it better 50 years ago.” Such an argument would be laughed off the page, but somehow, tarring all genre novelists with the same brush based on limited experience is perfectly fine?
Just one example: Yagoda fails to take into account the series aspect of the detective novel. The only book he discusses in detail, “City of Bones” by Michael Connelly, is indeed a late installment in a long-running series. The character of Harry Bosch has evolved over the years by subtle degrees that can be appreciated by readers who have been following the series over time. Would anyone tune into, say, “The Sopranos” for the first time in the third season and blame the writers because he didn’t “get” it?
Nothing says that Yagoda has to like contemporary crime fiction. He’s entitled to his opinion, but he shouldn’t try to pretend that it’s an informed one.
– Carrie Pruett
Yagoda doesn’t even touch Dennis Lehane in his article on the state of hard-boiled fiction. Lehane’s work (his series Kenzie/Gennaro fiction, at least) is a cut above all the work discussed in his article (particularly the reprehensibly repetitive Bosch books), and deserves the accolades people give it. He’s stopped the series to avoid dilution, and while “Mystic River” and “Shutter Island” aren’t particularly great, he’s still a buy-on-sight author for me. It’s also telling (to me, at least) that the only books I’ve kept from the genre are his, Chandler’s and Dashiell Hammett’s.
– Nathan Lundblad
It seems, along with recent comments by A.S. Byatt about Harry Potter, that we are talking just as much about class as we are about what Yagoda calls “literary values.” Beyond the simple opposition of commercial success vs. true literature, there lies an undercurrent of smugness.
Maybe if Mr. Yagoda wasn’t wearing his New Yorker sweater so visibly, his words would be easier to swallow. To add to his running sports metaphor, I’m not sure I would even be allowed to be play ball in his sports complex.
– Hilesh Patel
I wholeheartedly agree with Ben Yagoda’s disillusionment with the mystery novel. I have just read all of Chandler’s work over the past two months for the first time. Having completed that, I went looking for more. I read Charles Taylor’s “Murder in Midwinter” piece and went out and bought an S.J. Rozan and a Reginald Hill. I made it through the first few pages of each before giving up — the writing in both was excruciating after having read Chandler (I guess it’s excruciating anyway). I have read widely in the fantasy genre and see much the same patterns. Fantasy also has a lot of raving and blathering over each new trilogy even though it’s the same tedious story told over and over. There are maybe two writers who could be considered to possess literary quality in the fantasy genre, Gene Wolfe and Mervyn Peake. No, not even Tolkien makes it — he is a superb technician in creating a big epic with a big back story, but his prose is mediocre at best. Maybe the sheer weight of his popularity has shoved him into the canon but this doesn’t actually elevate the quality of his writing.
So it seems that 99 percent of all genre fiction is trash. Can the same be said of contemporary literary fiction? I don’t think so (though much of it isn’t something I’d like to read). But what causes this difference? It is a different type of writer who is attracted to writing in the genre, vs. one who is attracted toward writing in the general literary arena. This may select for the more intelligent and gifted writers ending up in the literary field, because they quickly perceive the limitations of the genre. But there is another consideration — the expectations of the reader.
There are conflicting objectives between genre fiction and literature. In genre fiction the reader is expecting an escape from reality and the genre writer writes to this need. In a literary work the writer is trying to render reality the best they can (or in some way make a statement about reality). The literary writer isn’t concerned about the need of his reader to be distracted from reality. The literary work may even rub the reader’s face in some bitter aspect of reality that the reader would rather avoid. It is the flight from reality that gives genre fiction its inherent mediocrity. Even if you aren’t a highly gifted writer, as long as you stick to some aspect of reality in creating a literary effort it will likely come off as a “respectable” work. But it would take an incredibly rare and gifted writer to write in the genre and make it into the literary realm. The challenge of providing an escape while at the same time effectively building on a foundation of reality is simply too difficult a feat for the vast majority of writers.
– Benjamin Derstine
This opinion piece has a huge, glaring omission: Can you say Erle Stanley Gardner and Dashiell Hammett? Perry Mason and Sam Spade?
It’s inconceivable that an author would attempt to deconstruct today’s mystery authors without at least a passing nod to these two giants. Hammett led the way with “The Maltese Falcon” (1930) and Gardner followed with his Perry Mason series (“The Case of the Velvet Claws” being the first in 1933). Hammett also wrote “The Thin Man” and many short stories, and Gardner wrote the Cool an, Lam and the Doug Selby series. Chandler’s first novel, “The Big Sleep,” was published in 1939, by which time Gardner had written 13 Perry Mason novels, three Doug Selby novels and 20 books overall, in addition to hundreds of short stories.
Raymond Chandler is undoubtedly a fantastic writer. However, to suggest that Chandler is the “greatest” writer in this genre is opinion, and certainly open to debate; to assert that “Raymond Chandler and Ross Macdonald did it first” is to simply ignore history.
– Mike Westberg
Ben Yagoda’s “The Case of the Overrated Mystery Novel” is, to put it bluntly, a lazy bit of cheap sensationalism, written and published because making fans angry is the surest way to provoke responses and make it look like the writer has written something “edgy” and “important.”
Yagoda’s laziness is evident in that he picks only the easiest targets. Connelly’s “City of Bones” is probably that writer’s worst book, chosen because it would have been impossible to do such a hatchet job on Connelly’s classic, “The Black Echo.”
Further, while the headline mentions Dennis Lehane, Yagoda’s article doesn’t touch upon his work at all. Nor does he mention Robert Crais, except to note that Crais provides a blurb for another book. George P. Pelecanos is also mentioned only in passing. None of the U.K. crime fiction writers (Ian Rankin, Ken Bruen, Stephen Booth, et al.), people who are doing some of the best work in the genre, is even mentioned.
It’s all a bit of a cheat, really. It’s easy to dis a genre if you ignore its best work by its best writers.
– Dusty Rhoades
Ben Yagoda is tired of warmed-over angst. Apparently, the best thing he could think to do about it was to warm over some of his own. Woe is Ben; he can’t find a detective novel that makes him feel like he did in 1969.
Now, I enjoy and admire some of the mystery writers he derides — Robert Parker, Michael Connelly, James Lee Burke, S.J. Rozan — but I won’t claim that makes their work literature. Some is, I think, and some isn’t, but that’s a debate for a day with fewer deadlines. What I do find strange is this: If he kept finding himself disappointed by Janet Maslin’s recommendations — or by cover blurbs, though I doubt any published writer is naive enough to believe those — why didn’t he stop heeding them and go exploring on his own? That’s what educated, interested people do. They don’t just buy what they’re told. There’s a whole genre out there, Ben, and Maslin doesn’t have the time, taste or space for all of it. You’ve skimmed the surface and buzzed off, complaining about the lack of depth.
You’re also not thinking too clearly about literature. For example, you say romanticized, sentimentalized characters run counter to literary values.
Really?
Read “The Brothers Karamazov” lately? Think maybe there’s just the merest smidge of romanticization and sentimentalization there? A smidge? One leetle smidgeopovich?
But that was a cheap shot. Everybody knows “The Brothers Karamazov” is literature, so everything in it is good. But “Winter and Night,” that’s just a mystery — and one that doesn’t make you feel like you did when you were … how old, again, in 1969?
“The Boston Globe [you wrote] called the book ‘very well-written, displaying Rozan’s ability to describe place and weather.’ I don’t know about you, but I’m always in the market for a good weather novel.)”
Snarky. Very snarky. Read any Steinbeck lately?
I’m not saying any old mystery with weather in it is “The Grapes of Wrath.” Even “The Grapes of Wrath” apparently isn’t “The Grapes of Wrath” — after all, there are those pesky romanticized characters. So Steinbeck is out too. Dead as Dostoevsky. But no, my point isn’t that mysteries are all masterpieces; it’s that you make some really weird assumptions about what can’t be literature.
Regarding your vow that you are “off these books for good,” I don’t think anyone will mind. You’ve skimmed the surface. Now buzz off.
– Keith Snyder
[Keith Snyder is the author of "The Night Men," "Coffin's Got the Dead Guy on the Inside" and "Trouble Comes Back."]
Lucie Blackman, 21, went out for the afternoon in 2000, phoning her roommate and best friend Louise to arrange a meeting later that night. Lucie never showed up, and within a few days she’d become one of those vanished blondes whose fates fuel headlines and hours of speculative media coverage. She was British, a former flight attendant, and she and Louise were living in Tokyo. They were also bar hostesses, a profession with a very specific meaning in Japan, difficult to explain to foreigners and not entirely clear to the Japanese themselves. Lucie both did and didn’t match the classic Missing Blonde profile, and for a while the mystery of what happened to her threatened to lapse into permanent obscurity.
One thing made a difference: The actions of Lucie’s father, Tim Blackman, who arrived in Tokyo to join his other daughter, Sophie, in publicizing the search and prodding the police. Richard Lloyd Parry, Tokyo bureau chief for the Times of London, covered the case as it unfolded, first over the course of several months while Lucie’s whereabouts and abductor remained unknown, and finally for the six years it took to try the man accused of killing her, Joji Obara. The book Parry wrote about the case, “People Who Eat Darkness,” is an exceptionally perceptive and nuanced look at a terrible crime, one that put nations, institutions and family members at odds, and often into bitter and toxic conflict.
Unlike Truman Capote, author of “In Cold Blood,” the most celebrated true crime narrative of all, Parry is in essence a reporter; this is no “nonfiction novel.” But like Capote, he’s less interested in dishing the eerie or lurid details than he is in exploring the penumbra of the crime, the complex factors that fed into it and the unpredictable effects it had on an ever-spreading network of people. The true crime genre has a (mostly well-earned) reputation for trashiness, but it fascinates for legitimate reasons, as well. Transgression, justice and punishment speak to the very heart of what a society is, how it holds its people together and how they decide who lies beyond the pale.
Because Lucie Blackman was a foreigner, and one employed in an industry that the Japanese view as disreputable, the Tokyo police were inclined to dismiss her disappearance. Bar hostesses get paid to talk to and flirt with customers, and they are expected to go on (paid) dinner dates with them outside the clubs where they work, but it’s an arrangement that usually stops short of actual sex. Nevertheless, the Japanese think of most foreign hostesses as irresponsible, drug-loving backpackers who might well run off without telling anyone or get mixed up with dangerous people. Whether or not a Westerner would call what bar hostesses do a part of the sex industry, for the Japanese, these women belong to that category of “bad” girl who can expect little help or concern from authorities should she get into serious trouble.
Crime is not what it was in Capote’s day. In addition to finding and building a case against the perpetrator — jobs for law enforcement authorities — there’s handling the media, a task usually left to the victim and his or her relatives. Lucie’s father proved, initially at least, to be a master at this. Tim could detach himself emotionally from the horror of his situation and strategize. He was able to capitalize on a G-8 summit meeting being held in Japan around the same time Lucie vanished and parlay it into the intervention of British Prime Minister Tony Blair. Blair publicly asked Japan’s prime minister to front-burner the investigation, and met with Tim and his younger daughter Sophie while he was in Tokyo.
The police, who had been dragging their heels on Lucie’s disappearance, found this development (which made perfect sense in the political context of Britain) flabbergasting. Still, it worked: Lucie, who might have been written off as one of those “disposable” women of dubious virtue, was conclusively cast as an innocent girl, “naive perhaps, out of her depth,” but an adventurous daughter rather than a reckless slut. Tim was driving the narrative, as an electoral campaign manager might put it, and he was good at it. He liked talking to the press, even the tabloid press, and they liked him.
But if Tim was good at telling Lucie’s story, he was less successful at telling his own. Some of the most penetrating passages in “People Who Eat Darkness” concern what Parry refers to as the “script” expected from bereaved parents. Years later, Parry covered a press conference given by the father of another murdered girl and recognized in him “everything the world expected of a man in his situation: broken, helpless, turned inside out by loss.”
Tim, however, was composed, which aroused a formless popular suspicion regarding his sincerity. In similar cases, this uneasiness frequently takes the form of outside observers suddenly deciding that the parents might be implicated in their child’s disappearance or death. Tim, halfway around the world when Lucie vanished, was immune to that, but when he quarreled with the rich businessman funding the private search for his daughter, accusations of self-interest and even exploitation surfaced.
Lucie’s mother, Jane, on the other hand, behaved exactly as a grief-stricken mother is supposed to. In some respects, the truth about her parents’ failed marriage is as unknowable as the events of Lucie’s final hours. Unamicably divorced, Tim and Jane avoided even being in the same room together throughout the crisis. Was Jane, who seems to fall for every kind of supernatural hokum that crosses her path, pathologically vindictive, or was Tim as big a shit as she claimed? Just when you think you’ve made up your mind on that question, a new development comes along to knock you into the other camp.
As for the perpetrator himself, he remains something of a cipher to Parry, who was never able to interview him. Obsessively camera shy, Obara deftly avoided being properly photographed even after his arrest. He was clearly demented, as a long, self-justifying self-published book (disguised as the work of concerned supporters) amply demonstrates. Resolutely confident and unrepentant, Obara was also utterly unlike the vast majority of Japanese criminal defendants. (Parry explains that the justice system there depends almost completely on the ability of police investigators to shame suspects into confessing.) They simply didn’t know what to do with him. The Japanese blamed Obara’s recalcitrant behavior on his Korean ethnicity.
The Blackmans and Obara, Western-style players, descended on a criminal justice system unprepared to cope with them. “The inadequacy of its police force is one of the mysterious taboos of Japanese society,” Parry writes, “a subject that the media and politicians strain to avoid confronting, or even acknowledging.” The blunders of the police were many, but they could also be dogged investigators. Their real problem, according to Parry, is that they are good at dealing with “conventional Japanese criminals,” but when faced with the unexpected, they’re “sclerotic, unimaginative, prejudiced and procedure-bound.”
Obara behaved like a British or American criminal — taking charge of his defense, actively contesting the prosecutors, formulating a counternarrative to account for Lucie’s death. Watching how Japanese institutions responded to him, as well as to the Blackmans’ efforts to influence the investigation, proves fascinating. Since true crime, at its best, serves as a window on what a society cares about — how it constitutes not only what’s right and wrong but what’s sympathetic, reasonable, acceptable and important — the Obara trial was a most illuminating culture clash.
Parry doesn’t, however, forget what lies at the root of this drama: the death of a young woman who, whatever her doubts or flaws, had every reason to hope for a wonderful life. As the investigation would eventually reveal, this tragedy was eminently preventable. The people who tried to tip off the police about Obara were dismissed as not worth listening to. Let’s hope they’re not the only ones to learn from that mistake.
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“Inside Job,” Charles Ferguson’s Oscar-winning documentary film on how government, Wall Street and academia colluded to deliver us the worst financial crisis since the Great Depression, made a powerful case that something was very very rotten at the heart of the American political/economic nexus. His follow-up book, “Predator Nation: Corporate Criminals, Political Corruption, and the Hijacking of America,” can be considered the legal brief that dots every “i” and crosses every “t” in his argument. A tightly argued, profusely footnoted and deeply enraged castigation of everyone involved, “Predator Nation” isn’t just a factually unchallengeable account of how Wall Street blew up the global economy. It’s a denunciation, a call for justice and a warning: After getting away with the crime of the century, Wall Street still isn’t satisfied.
“If you have already got 96 percent of what you want,” Ferguson told Salon, “why not take the remaining 4? That’s where the culture of American finance is right now, and I think it’s really dangerous for the country.”
For at least 30 years the United States has been headed on the wrong track, handing over more power and wealth to a tiny percent of the American population at the expense of everyone else. But Ferguson’s story isn’t just focused on the greed and recklessness of the elite. It’s also about their criminality. The bankers who wrecked the financial system broke the law. And yet, amazingly, not only have the vast majority of responsible parties not been convicted of any crime — they haven’t even been charged. There have been a few settlements of fraud allegations with the Securities and Exchange Commission and other regulatory bodies and a smattering of slap-on-the-wrist fines, but nothing that comes close to a proper reckoning for the massive hardship and economic destruction that they caused.
Ferguson’s glowering rage spares neither political party. Clinton gets the blame for completing the process of financial sector deregulation, and George W. Bush is lacerated for his general incompetence. But Barack Obama is showered with a particularly aggrieved contempt. Obama, writes Ferguson, came into office with more hope invested in him than in any recent leader, and then proceeded to “betray” and “screw” his supporters by declining to bring Wall Street to account for its misdeeds.
“Predator Nation” hits bookstores on Monday, just in time to cash in on the headlines generated by the latest banking atrocity — JPMorgan Chase’s massively failed derivatives bet.
“Predator Nation” is an angry book. Were you this angry before you started making the film “Inside Job”?
No, I absolutely was not. I remember the first time I got any kind of inkling of what was to come was in August or September 2007, when Charley Morris sent me a copy of a galley proof of his book, “The Trillion Dollar Meltdown.” It was scary and powerful, but I couldn’t bring myself to believe it. I remember calling Charley and saying, “You lay out a very convincing case but really, these people aren’t that crazy, they aren’t that stupid. They are regulated. Can it really be this bad?”
And he said: “You just wait.” And boy, he was right.
It’s not that I thought that investment bankers were like Mother Teresa. I knew that they weren’t. But the degree of nakedness and extremity of the dishonesty and its pervasiveness was a huge shock to me. It turned out that many banks, on a very large scale, and without any disclosure, had created and sold securities with the intent of betting on their failure. And this was done with the knowledge and approval of senior management of all these banks, including the oldest and most traditional.
How do you explain this behavior? How did we get to a point where it was routine for Wall Street bankers to behave in ways that most Americans would consider frankly immoral?
I think this has its roots all the way back in the 1970s and the beginning of the era of deregulation. But there was a kind of inflection point during the five-year period between 1997 and 2003 — the late Clinton and/or early Bush administration — when all the rules just went away. You went from a period, a regime, where people did have at least some concern about going to jail, to a point where everything is legal, and derivatives couldn’t be regulated at all and nobody went to jail for anything. And looking back I would say that this period definitely started under Clinton. You absolutely cannot blame this on George W. Bush.
You say that everything is now legal, but in your book you dismiss Obama’s argument that he could not prosecute Wall Street bankers for criminal behavior because what they did was technically not illegal as “complete horseshit.”
I should be more precise. I should have said, “where everything was perceived as being legal.” There was no perception that, even when you were in fact violating the law, that there would be any legal jeopardy or legal consequence to what you were doing. And that was part of my surprise when I was making “Inside Job.” I really was surprised that people would so overtly and explicitly do things that 20 years previously probably would have gotten them landed in prison.
One can certainly argue that the penalties and prosecutions following the S&L [Savings and Loan] and insider scandals of the 1980s were vastly insufficient. No doubt about that. But there still were consequences. I don’t know whether [junk bond king] Michael Milken would have still done everything he did, if he knew that he was going to spend two years in prison and have about half of his wealth confiscated. Maybe he still would have made that bet, but still, clearly he had a few unpleasant days. And now, nothing, just nothing.
In your book, you have a laundry list of things you believe the bankers could be prosecuted for, everything from securities fraud to perjury to RICO Act violations. And then you point out, more than once, that during the Obama administration there have been no arrests or indictments of any firms or senior executives “related to causing the bubble or the crisis.” What’s your explanation for this? Is it as simple as the Obama administration being captured by the financial sector?
I’m not President Obama’s psychoanalyst, so I can’t speak to what goes on inside his head. But that is what I would say of the Obama administration generally. In the book I go through the list of his personnel appointments and it’s pretty clear.
But how do we square that with the negative Wall Street reaction to bank reform? You devote only one sentence in your entire book to Dodd-Frank, calling it “weak and ridiculously complicated.” But even so, House Republicans have introduced nine bills trying to repeal parts or all of it, Romney is campaigning on repealing the whole thing, and Wall Street hates it and has tried to kill every last part of it. There is clearly antipathy against Obama from the financial sector now, from Jamie Dimon on down, that wasn’t there when he got elected. If he was truly captured, why the antipathy?
Well, there is some antipathy. But he just held a very successful fundraiser at the home of the president of private equity group Blackstone. So the antipathy is not universal.
But you know, when I was in academia and also when I was running a software company I had a fair amount of contact with portions of the financial sector, investment banking industry, and the venture capital sector. And certainly they were already pretty rapacious and pretty politically conservative. But they would never then have said and done the things that they say and do now. I recently was at a dinner in New York City and one of the people there was a very, very successful man who is on the borderline between venture capital and private equity. And this guy went into an extended rant about how he was at a disadvantage because he had to pay 15 percent capital gains taxes. When I was first dealing with venture capitalists in a significant way, the capital gains tax rate was 28 percent, and nobody was complaining. Then they got them reduced to 20 under Clinton, and then later 15 under Bush. Plus, they got a rollover provision so if they took the proceeds of a venture capital investment and rolled it over into a new venture capital investment it was tax-free. At that point, we’ve reached nirvana, what more could there be?
But now we’re in this environment where this guy was loudly and aggressively complaining that he has to pay 15 percent to the government. And if that’s where you’re at, then of course you are going to complain about Dodd-Frank. You are going to complain about everything. If you have already got 96 percent of what you want, why not take the remaining 4? That’s where the culture of American finance is right now, and I think it’s really dangerous for the country.
Do you find it alarming that even after this huge crisis and even with a lot of populist anger on both the right and the left focused on Wall Street, Mitt Romney is running for president while promising to further deregulate Wall Street and repeal Dodd-Frank, and the polls show him neck and neck with Obama?
That is true, but I don’t think that Romney is going to get votes primarily or even secondarily for that. Most of the votes he is going to get will be because he’s religious, he’s against gay marriage, et cetera, all of these allegedly “values” issues — things like that and wanting to reduce taxes. That’s why he is going to get a substantial fraction of the popular vote. The reason he says he wants to roll back Dodd-Frank is not to get votes, it is to get money.
Ninety-nine percent of your book tells a story of how we’ve gotten ourselves into a bigger and bigger mess, and then you’ve got about a page and a half discussing what could be done to fix it. But your solutions — a legitimate third-party alternative, controlling the influence of money in politics, real tax reform, fixing education — it’s just really hard to see how we get from our current problems to those bullet points.
Yes. And we’re not. Not right now. I think it’s going to take things getting worse, either slowly or fast. Either we continue to melt away for another 25 years and then finally people wake up, or there might be another crisis. And maybe that will be sufficient. We’ll see. I don’t know. I’d be interested in your own view of this. I’ve had debates with several of my friends on this question. If Obama had really had the balls to try to do the various kind of things that he’d promised to do, or kinda sorta almost promised to do during his campaign, if he really made an effort, how far do you think he could have gotten in 2009?
At this point, I’m in the camp that believes that American government is completely broken. And we didn’t really find out how broken it was until Obama came in. In your book, you talk about Obama coming in withoverwhelming majorities, but he really only had 60 votes in the Senate from July 2009, when Al Franken was finally sworn in, to January 2010, when Scott Brown took over Ted Kennedy’s seat. And even the things that Obama did get through had to pass muster with a handful of very conservative Democrats. Nebraska’s Ben Nelson had control over the entire government. It’s a completely dysfunctional system. I think Obama severely underestimated what he was facing when he came in, and picked the wrong strategy of trying to go bipartisan, but it’s not as if he had the freedom to do what he wanted that Roosevelt enjoyed when he became president in 1932.
But there are an awful lot of things that the president can do even without the Congress. He didn’t have to choose the people he chose. He didn’t have to choose the attorney general he chose or the head of the criminal division of the Justice Department that he chose. I think that if he had said, I’m going to allocate $500 million to a special prosecutor’s office, and we’re going to find out what the fuck happened here, he could have done that.
There’s some talk now that JPMorgan’s disastrous bet on credit default swaps might lead to tighter regulation. I have to say, it was bizarre to be speed-reading your book while the Morgan news was causing post-traumatic stress flashbacks to the worst days of the financial crisis. Does what happened there fit into the narrative of “Predator Nation”?
I rather think so, yes. Mr. Dimon has long been largely correctly regarded as the best, most judicious, most careful steward of a major global bank. That he and his bank could make a mistake like this does not bode well. One thing that has actually not been widely discussed, somewhat to my surprise, in the commentary about all of this, is that this mistake — which it appears will cost them between $2 billion and $5 billion — this occurred in a very forgiving economic environment. If they made a mistake like this in September 2008, then things could look really quite different.
Does it qualify as criminal behavior?
There is some suggestion of criminality in the lack of honesty on disclosure of the positions and their potential implications. I can’t say; we don’t know enough yet. It certainly is the case that JPMorgan, although more prudent than many other banks over the last decade, has frequently been just as dishonest. It has done a number of extremely unethical things, some of which I mention in the book. So it wouldn’t be a surprise if they had not been forthcoming about this.
Do you think it will make any difference in how banks are regulated?
I fear not. Honestly. I’m sure that Mr. Dimon is momentarily chastised, and that JPMorgan will not be making any similar bets in the next couple of years. But is it going to change the overall posture of bankers and banking and is it going to change the regulatory environment in any significant way? I tend to doubt that. Unfortunately.
So where does this leave us? Your book is filled with a strong sense of personal outrage. How do you personally feel about the prospect that the only thing that could get us out of the mess we’re in is yet another crisis, perhaps even worse than the one we just lived through?
Personally, I am very fortunate. I have a very blessed life. I made some money earlier, I’m basically pretty financially secure. I can’t have private jets and private islands but I don’t have to worry about having a roof over my head or being able to eat well, unlike many people in this country going forward. And I do work that I love. I love making movies, I love writing books. Personally I’m fine.
But the country is not. But this happens to countries. This is not the first country it’s happened to. It’s not even the first time it happened to the United States. We’ll see whether we come out of it. Last time it happened we came out of it, eventually. It took a long time and it was very painful but eventually we came out of it. Will that happen again or not, I don’t know, I honestly don’t.
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An ancient and priceless book, a murky history of evasions and coverups, an underground of sinister and possibly violent dealers, a former spy who drops tantalizing hints and a wily 84-year-old millionaire who says stuff like, “The problem with this story is that it could damage your health”: Are these the ingredients for a cheesy, improbable historical thriller? Yet “The Aleppo Codex,” Matti Friedman’s account of his attempts to learn the history of one of the world’s most precious books, sports all of these assets, and it’s nonfiction. If reporting this story damaged Friedman’s health, it probably happened when he realized what he’d stumbled into and his reporter’s heart started beating in doubletime.
The Aleppo Codex is the most authoritative version of the Hebrew Bible, produced in the 10th century by the great rabbi Aaron Ben-Asher and the scribe Shlomo ben Buya. Friedman, who lives in Israel and has covered the Mideast and the Caucasus for the Associated Press and other publications, explains that the codex’s significance to Jewish faith and identity is more than symbolic. As a people scattered across the globe, “instead of being bound by a king, a temple, or geography, [Jews] needed to be bound by something else, something portable. What emerged was the idea that a people could be held together by words.” Yet in the centuries before printing, when words were transmitted orally and by copyists, it was all too easy for mistakes and variations to creep in, and “Jews could not be held together by a book if they were not reading precisely the same one.”
The codex was the perfect version of the Bible, a sort of atomic clock of Judaism, and intended to be the model for all subsequent copies. Its early history was fraught: captured by Crusaders in the fall of Jerusalem, ransomed by the Jewish community in Cairo and consulted by the fabled sage Maimonides, it was eventually taken to the Syrian city of Aleppo. There, it resided for half a century. Although it was well-cared-for by Aleppo’s Jewish community, it had come to be revered as a relic or treasure; few were allowed to see it and no one was allowed to copy it.
All that changed in 1947, when the establishment of the state of Israel by a United Nations resolution led to unrest in the Arab world and the harassment and persecution of Jewish communities in Muslim nations. In Aleppo, this took the form of riots and the sacking of the synagogue. The codex — commonly referred to as the Crown — was supposed to have been consumed in a fire set by the mob.
It was not, and in 1958, the Crown was smuggled into Jerusalem by a cheese merchant who was one of the few Syrian Jews to receive official permission to emigrate to Israel. Friedman became interested in this “lonely treasure and millennium-old traveler” in 2008, when he decided to write an article about it. He imagined the piece would be “an uplifting and uncomplicated account of the rescue of a cultural artifact,” but what he discovered instead was a thicket of conflicting reports, missing records, puzzling omissions, stonewalling officials and obsessed amateur sleuths.
The mysteries surround not the ancient history of the book, but what happened to it between 1947 and the mid-1970s, although even establishing where things got dodgy proved to be a challenge. Friedman relates each piece of the story as he untangled it himself, and part of the pleasure of “The Aleppo Codex” is getting to tag along on the heels of a real-life investigative journalist as he does his detective work. Those years spent writing wire copy have not eroded the author’s eloquence, either, as the book’s headier touches attest: “Down in those streets, the stores now shuttered, the women of the manzul were receiving clients, and the men were submerged in cafe smoke like deep-sea divers, tubes between their lips, inhaling the rose-scented oxygen of water pipes.”
While the official story simply states that the Crown was presented to the president of Israel, Itzhak Ben-Zvi, upon its arrival in Jerusalem in 1958, Friedman unearthed evidence that this was no simple handoff. Most of the Jewish community of Aleppo had immigrated to Israel, and their rabbis insisted that the Crown was supposed to have been delivered to them. The cheese merchant maintained that the rabbis still living in Aleppo, the ones who had passed him the book, told him no more than to give it to “a religious man.” (The Syrian government prevented communication with the Jews in Aleppo, so his story could not be confirmed or disproved.) The Aleppo rabbis decided to take their complaint to court.
This dispute embodied major tensions within the newly formed state. The Aleppo rabbis had presided over what was, as Friedman writes, “an old community by the time Roman legions destroyed the Jewish temple in Jerusalem in AD 70.” The Israeli leadership, “largely secular European socialists,” did not strike the Aleppo Jews as “representing the entire Jewish people.” Why should these interlopers be allowed to appropriate a book that had been the focal point of Aleppo’s venerable Jewish community for half a millennium?
The codex lawsuit was also a dramatic example of what Friedman describes as a “largely untold story” concerning the migration of the Jewish Diaspora to Israel after the formation of the state. Along with the movement of people, there was also a “great migration of books.” Jews from all over the Muslim world were forced to leave neighborhoods their families had inhabited for centuries. Not only did distinctive local cultures vanish overnight, but so did many of their treasured texts, left at docks and airstrips with the promise that they would be forwarded on to their owners in Israel, and then never seen again. Well, not exactly never: Some of these books and scrolls turned up later in state archives and even in booksellers’ shops.
If that were all there was to the story of the Aleppo Codex, it would be fascinating (and dismaying) enough, but after wrestling with the shadowy story of how the Crown got to Jerusalem, Friedman turns to a second and even more disturbing question: Where is the rest of it? About 200 pages, some 40 percent of the Crown, are missing. These are the most important parts of all: the first five books of the Bible, also known as the Pentateuch and the Torah. Again, the official story holds that portions of the Crown were burned in the 1947 fire, but this has since been disproved. A couple of single pages have been found in places as far-flung as Brooklyn, N.Y., where they were carried around by Aleppo old-timers as good-luck charms. The bulk of the Torah, however, remains MIA.
This is where Friedman’s investigation gets especially lively, as he consults with a former Mossad case officer and secretly records an impromptu interview with one of the dozen or so men rich enough to have bought the missing pages. Supposedly, this collector and his daughter were approached by two dealers with a briefcase at a Jerusalem book fair in the 1980s. They were shown an old codex identified as part of the Crown, but the collector says he refused to buy it because the price was too high. One of the dealers later turned up dead in a Tel Aviv hotel room registered to a man who didn’t exist.
Friedman has his suspicions about the collector’s story: Would this man really consider $1 million too much to pay for a supposedly priceless text? He devotes most of his energy, however, to getting to the bottom of who is responsible for ripping out the heart of the Crown and selling it on the black market. As he settles on three likely culprits, “The Aleppo Codex” builds to a moral crescendo more impressive than the climactic fight scene in any thriller. “A volume that survived one thousand years of turbulent history was betrayed in our times by the people charged with guarding it,” Friedman writes. “We might file this tale between Cain and Abel and the golden calf, parables about the many ways we fail.”
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"This Is How" by Augusten Burroughs. Copyright © 2012 by the author and reprinted by permission of St. Martin’s Press, LLC.
Many people continue to feel influenced and even controlled by the things that happened to them a long time ago. Sometimes, people harbor dark, traumatic memories from childhood. Or fragments of memories — incomplete scenes, uncomfortable feelings, perhaps even a sense of certainty that something specific and terrible happened to them, but little more than this.
Others experienced something traumatic in adulthood that continues to affect them day to day many years later. Maybe an assault has left a person afraid to leave their home or enter a particular neighborhood.
For a certain kind of person this will be the end of the story. What ever experience they endured essentially continues to this day, ever present in the background, shaping the choices made on a daily basis, affecting the quality and range of their life. This kind of person might be angry all the time or feel guilty or afraid. They just accept these states as a part of themselves.
Then there are people who are keenly aware of their experiences, who are psychologically ambitious; they wish to “get over” these historical traumas and might see a therapist to help them.
The therapeutic process takes time, commitment, and funding. Then, insight leads to understanding, which leads to choice. At last, they are free to move on.
It’s such a clean, well-defined structure for the process of healing. Almost like a paint-by-numbers portrait where all those black outlines are confusing at first, but in time, as you apply the correct colors in the right areas, the tangle of lines resolves into a perfectly clear image.
Unfortunately, our brains tend to color outside the line. First, there is the matter of understanding our past and the events that transpired.
Understanding what happened in the past is rarely truly possible. Because true understanding must incorporate context. Not merely what we experienced, but why. And the why requires knowing the motivations of the other people involved. Without the perspective of this context, our understanding will always be biased; it will be from a single perspective: Ours. And therefore, not necessarily accurate or true.
If you are on a highway and you drive past a car accident so severe that the hood of the car has been crushed up against the windshield, you may very well assume the occupants are dead. And perhaps this will haunt you because as you passed by the car, you glimpsed a little girl’s doll on the shelf behind the backseat. One look at that accident was all anybody would need to know what “unsurvivable” looked like. And you have never been able to forget that doll or the little girl who must have loved it and who died in such a terrible crumple of steel and glass. Let’s imagine that you are haunted by dreams where you come upon the accident and you see the doll and you do nothing.
Let’s say that what was unknown to you was that the car was a high-end Mercedes that featured crumple zones designed to absorb the impact of a crash while protecting the occupants within a safety cage. And let’s say that the two occupants inside the car were sitting there as you drove by and the man in the driver’s seat was on his cell phone.
“No, I mean totally like, trashed, totaled. We’re waiting; they’re supposed to send a tow truck. She’s good except she has to pee so she’s—”
“Oh my God, did you just tell Jason that I have to pee? Now he’s going to imagine me peeing. Don’t forget to tell him we found the doll at a tag sale but we need to buy wrapping paper. At least we think it’s the doll.”
“You hear that? Yeah, don’t think about her peeing. And we’re pretty sure it’s the right doll; we had to spend like three hours on Craigslist to find one.”
Imagine that after the tow truck arrives and our couple has been safely installed into a rental vehicle, they don’t really ever think about that crash again except both are pleased with the new car’s color. Neither liked the wrecked Mercedes’ particular shade of red.
In this example, you can see how your entire perception of what happened — and you were a witness — is completely distorted by your point of view.
So, if you were to enter therapy over being disturbed by this wreck, you could spend years discussing why the sight of the doll was so upsetting, and how impotent you felt being unable to stop and help but even if you could stop, what could you have done?
Possibly, the therapist would have you write letters to the dead little girl.
What this really accomplishes is the creation of a sort of personal myth. A series of well-remembered events with finely honed details. As accurate as they may be, they are accurate from only one perspective.
For many years, I believed that one’s past had to be fully understood in order to move through and beyond it. I see now that I was wrong about this. I know now that scrutinizing one’s past and trying to gain understanding and “make peace” with it is a kind of addiction that keeps one focused on the past and not on the present.
As with any addiction, the first step to overcoming it is to see it.
And once you see it, you have to stop it.
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Once the current moment moves into the past, it is entirely gone. It ceases to exist except in documents, photographs, and an impression left in a sofa cushion. The past — and all the moments it contained — are no longer sharing this world with us.
They are no more real than Cinderella.
To spend time — year after year — in therapy or on your own thinking about your past and forming conclusions and stitching the elements into a narrative that you can name, “the truth,” in order to be “free” of it, is not how you become free from your past.
The past does not need to be reconsidered in the present and given a structure. The events of the past cannot be understood when you are the only element of the past actively engaged in reliving it.
When somebody says, “Therapy has been really helpful to me in terms of resolving some of my issues from the past,” what does this actually, in practical terms, mean?
Or somebody is “haunted” or controlled by their past. How is this possible?
When I first moved to New York, I became friends with a guy who seemed to be exactly the guy I wanted to be. He was very outgoing and had lots of friends and they probably all felt as I did: Like his best and closest friend.
After we’d been friends for almost a year, one night we were out drinking and he told me he had a confession to make, something he wanted me to know about himself.
I nodded and tried to look very sincere and open, while inside my mind it was the Kentucky Derby, with most of the money being placed on female-to-male transsexual. That wasn’t it.
He proceeded to tell me in great detail about the utterly atrocious physical abuse he’d experienced at the hands of his father and mother during his childhood. It was well beyond anything I myself had ever come close to experiencing.
After this evening, my friend spoke of his past abuse frequently. And I realized that all the time we’d been friends, all those moments prior to his revelation had probably been, in his mind, moments leading up to The Telling.
Only after The Telling could he be fully himself with me. His story of his past abuse was a large part of his identity. It was a protected secret that was kept out of view for acquaintances and coworkers. Only after a measure of trust and intimacy had been formed would there be almost a ceremony in which he detailed his abuse. Rather like unwrapping, slowly, an extravagant gift one knows is going to blow the mind of the recipient.
When we first became friends it had amazed me that he was single. I now understood that he was single because of
how guys reacted when my friend finally revealed his history. It was like encountering a new person. And my friend’s abuse was now like a third person with us wherever we went.
Who could blame him? It was a wonder he was still alive.
Today, I see it differently.
My friend is a dramatic example of somebody who is haunted by their past. But because the past is gone, how does it haunt? Of course, it does not. The past does not haunt us. We haunt the past. We allow our minds to focus in that direction. We open memories and examine them. We re-experience emotions we felt during the painful events we experienced because we are recalling them in as much detail as we can.
We enter therapy and discuss our past. We formulate opinions about what happened. We create a rich, detailed world. In therapy or on our own, we focus our attention on something that no longer exists in order to understand or have perspective or acknowledge or own what has happened. And only after we decide this understanding or recognition has taken place do we stop worrying that particular tooth with our tongue.
For years, I believed this was how to live.
I was wrong. It’s how to stagnate.
I know now how to get over the past. It has worked for me in a deeper, more enduring way than any therapy I have ever had.
Writing six autobiographical books is what freed me from my past.
If the books had been cookbooks I expect I would feel just exactly as free. That I wrote six books about my past is the red herring; nothing I have written has in any way altered the past or healed me clean, so no scar remains.
Perhaps the process of writing — being fully in the moment, while I write letter by letter — has soothed me because it’s kept me busy. When you’re busy, you lack the time to fondle your emotional baggage. And if that sounds too reductive, remember we crawled from the swamp. Simple isn’t such a terrible thing to be in this respect.
For the same reason, being out of a job and just hanging around is depressing in a thousand different ways. All you have is time. Sooner or later, you end up wandering around bad neighborhoods inside your head. Neighborhoods like, “They never should have fired me, those assholes.” Which may be true or it may be untrue but it’s irrelevant to everything. It is through work that challenged me and required continuous freshness that I began to occupy not the past but this, right now. My advertising career had not been challenging. Being busy is not the same as being focused. Being focused means being here.
And this, here, this line, that comma.
That’s what freed me from the past. The present kidnapped me. I climbed into its car when it held up its hand and showed me the candy. I hopped right in.
When something from my past upsets me here in my present, it’s because I let my mind think back to the past and grab hold of something.
This is how the past haunts us. We think about it.
Therapy could be of tremendous benefit to “getting over” one’s past if the therapy is focused on specific ways to stop submitting to the temptation to obsess.
Many people with difficult histories carry these histories with them, burnishing the past with each retelling. Sometimes, a particular trauma may be the largest thing we have ever experienced. So we kind of move into it, make it our home. Because there’s nothing in our lives on the scale of that loss or that trauma.
So, you need a larger life. Something that can successfully compete with your past.
To live with your mind in the past — in the name of healing or understanding or overcoming — is to live in a fantasy world where nothing new or original is created. To “understand” one’s past is to handle clay that no longer exists and shape it into a bowl nobody can ever see or touch.
Denial of the painful events in one’s past is the same as obsessing over one’s past. To actively refuse to discuss or think about, if need be, what happened is to imbue it with power. Recycling the past into a new business, a not-for-profit to help others, a workshop, a painting, a book, a song — these are ways to explore the past in the context of the present. These are things people who are actively alive do.
You must never allow something that happened to you to become a morbidly treasured heirloom that you carry around, show people occasionally, put back in its black velvet pouch, and then tuck back into your jacket where you can keep it close to your heart.
Then, when asked to join the pole vaulting club, pull the coach aside and whisper, “I can’t. See” — and remove your gem from your pocket — “this is my terrible thing and as I expected, showing it to you has taken your breath away and made you sympathetic. So I will be excused, I assume?”
Other people will allow you — they will never blame you or challenge you — to use your past as an excuse to not face the normal fears everybody has when facing their future. Even if you were brutally physically assaulted, you must not withdraw because you are afraid it will happen again. This is not a valid exit.
Your fears that it might happen again are perfectly reasonable and justified: It might happen again.
Many people believe that if something really bad happens to them, they have paid their dues and nothing else really bad can happen again. But on the day you attend your mother’s funeral or declare personal bankruptcy, there is no law in the universe that prevents you from also getting a speeding ticket and your first grey hair.
When multiple bad things happen, it can feel like “life is out to get you.” It’s not. And it’s not a sign, either. What you do is, you keep going. You stop waiting for fairness.
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You do not need to work through your past so you can heal. You need to move forward and then you’re as healed as you’re likely to be.
Unless.
Unless you experienced something so unspeakably terrible, something so out of scale in magnitude that it simply doesn’t fit into the past. It is too large to be contained by time or space. And if this is you, the thing you can do for the duration of your existence is to tell your story over and over. So that other people can hear you tell it and they can be moved, changed by it. This can help others.
Which is the single comfort for people who will always remain locked in their history, inside something that is really a different species of awful.
I met somebody whose grandfather had survived the death camps in Germany.
He told me that his grandfather was a very quiet, broken man. He rarely spoke and when he did, he told the same stories about how he survived.
I told him, “Do you listen, every time he tells you?”
He said, “No, I just kind of let him talk and do my thing; I’ve heard it all a thousand times.”
I wondered if he had ever truly heard it once. I suggested he listen, hang on every word and try to see visuals in his mind of the story his grandfather was telling him.
Some stories must be carved into the present and the future by telling and telling again and then again until the story is part of us.
From “This Is How” by Augusten Burroughs. Copyright © 2012 by the author and reprinted by permission of St. Martin’s Press, LLC.
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