My feminist dilemma at the peep show

I've been vocal about how porn and strip clubs objectify women. But as a sex addict, I'm powerfully drawn to them

Published September 30, 2014 11:00PM (EDT)

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“How much is the show?” I ask the balding man standing at the foot of the stairs.

Just behind him, the mystery radiates. Half-naked women are waiting to become fully naked women for paying customers (like me!) and everything about this idea excites me more than I can handle. The thrill of naked flesh. The power of money. The heat of doing something “taboo.” I’ve had a few drinks and my husband is 3,000 miles away — I’m ready to cross lines and masturbate in front of a complying stranger.

The man looks confused. “You mean for...

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By Erica Garza

Erica Garza is a writer from Los Angeles. Her essays have been published by Salon, Substance, HelloGiggles and The Manifest-Station. She is also a staff writer and travel curator at Luna Luna Mag. Read more at www.ericagarza.com.

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