The glory of porn without pictures

I was 13 when I found the magazine -- wild, erotic, totally mind-blowing -- and afterward, I was never the same

Published February 2, 2015 1:00AM (EST)

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I’d always read whatever was around the house, though not all reading materials were created equal. On a scale from one to 10, the Bible would have been a one, the Campus Humor section of Reader’s Digest a four, and Sports Illustrated a six. But this, what I had here in my lap at my friend’s house, was somewhere between a 10 and at least an 18 million.

Feet away, my buddies wrestled, grab-assed, slapped and punched, performed head locks, while I sat, eyes darting from left to right and then back again, my whole being focused on the words, alive on the page as ants. I couldn’t stop. I had to move my legs but I didn’t because I couldn’t stop.

“Dude,” one of them said after an hour. “There aren’t eve...

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By Seth Sawyers

Seth Sawyers' writing has appeared in The Rumpus, The Millions, Sports Illustrated, The Morning News, River Teeth, Fourth Genre, Quarterly West, and elsewhere. He is working on a novel about a 10-foot-tall office worker who finds out there is another person like him, and that it's a girl. He is an editor at Baltimore Review. He is on Twitter at @sethsawyers and online at

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