Maybe they shouldn't ask Justin Bieber back: "I don't feel good," he says, when performing during "hollow" awards shows

In a lengthily captioned Instagram post Monday, pop singer Justin Bieber explained his awards show existential crisis, writing "I don't feel good when I'm there nor after."

Bieber performed recent hits, "Company" and "Sorry," at the Billboard Music Awards on Sunday.

"I try to think of it as a celebration but can't help feeling like people are rating and grading my performance," the grammatically problematic post read. "A lot of people in the audience there to be seem worried about how much camera time they will get or who they can network with."

Bieber also implied he doesn't like performing in front of an audience that isn't comprised of his fans and their parents (not mutually exclusive).

"When I'm doing a regular show I feel they are there for the right reasons and to strictly have a good time!" he added. "But these award shows seem so hollow."

I don't know about these award shows.. No disrespect to anybody at any of the shows or the people running it. Nothing but love for you guys and your support. But I don't feel good when I'm there nor after. I try to think of it as a celebration but can't help feeling like people are rating and grading my performance. A lot of people in the audience there to be seem worried about how much camera time they will get or who they can network with. When I'm doing a regular show I feel they are there for the right reasons and to strictly have a good time! But these award shows seem so hollow. I get the premise is to award people for their accomplishments, but is it really? Because when I look in the audience I see a bunch of fake smiles so that when the camera hits them they look happy. Sure there are people truly proud of others so I don't want to knock them I'm just looking at the vast majority. I just think to myself if I'm living my purpose I want the reward to be fulfillment. I'm getting awarded for the things that I'm doing and not for who I am which is understandable I know it would probably be hard to calculate and award someone's spirit lol. But When I do get these awards the temptation of putting my worth in what I do is so hard to fight!!!I am privileged and honored to be recognized by my peers in but in these settings I can't feel the recognition. There's an authenticity missing that I crave! And I wonder does anybody else.. Sorry not sorry about grammar it's not my strong point

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