What it's like growing up with an LGBT parent, in their kids' own words

"Because I was two when my dad came out, my view of the world was always acceptance, always love"

Published June 17, 2018 6:30PM (EDT)

 (AP/John Minchillo)
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Excerpted with permission from "Rainbow Relatives: Real-World Stories and Advice on How to Talk to Kids about LGBTQ+ Families and Friends" by Sudi (“Rick”) Karatas. Copyright 2018 by Skyhorse Publishing, Inc.

Just in time for Pride in June, "Rainbow Relatives: Real-World Stories and Advice on How to Talk to Kids About LGBTQ+ Families and Friends" (May 8, 2018) is a collection of intimate, real-life stories and advice about coming out to family members—parents to children, aunts and uncles to nieces and nephews, grandparents to grandchildren.

The concept for "Rainbow Relatives" was born when author Sudi "Rick" Karatas asked his sister if her children knew about his (their uncle's) sexual orientation. She said they didn't, as she hadn't been sure how to approach the topic and wished there was a book she could read to help her have those conversations. So, Sudi wrote that book. He hopes Rainbow Relatives will make readers more accepting of all people and families, especially in the LGBTQ+ community.

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Since Rainbow Relatives is essentially about kids and their acceptance of the LGBTQ community, it was imperative for me to get their perspective, as well. The following are some questions I asked children (some now grown) with LGBTQ relatives and their various responses about their experiences.

If you could give advice to other kids who have a gay/lesbian/ bisexual/transgender parent or relative, what would it be?

  • Sam: I would tell them to accept the blessing they have been given. Yes, I believe I am blessed to have a gay father. It truly has made me the person I am today in the most positive way. Always embrace your family and never be bullied into silence.
  • Carla: Don’t think of your family or your parents as being different. For me, my moms were always just my parents and nothing else. If your family is happy, you’re luckier than many others out there, whether anyone is heterosexual, homosexual, or whatever else.
  • Jamie: I’d say to them to always remember you are lucky. You are growing up in a home or around others who are full of love and acceptance. Whoever you are will never be questioned or an issue. And you will easily be more accepting and openhearted to anyone you meet, something many people lack the ability to do. Love is love no matter what shape or form. Love and support your relative the most you can and they will do the same for you.
  • Huck: You don’t need to prove anything. Be yourself. When I was growing up with a gay dad, I felt a need to prove my masculinity and strength. I realize now, I didn’t.

What are some benefits of having an LGBTQ parent or relative, or same-sex parents?

  • Natalia: The biggest benefit I think is how accepting and open-minded I’ve become because of how I was brought up. I’m also very thankful for every family member I’ve gained from it.
  • Joe: It gives you an amazing perspective of the world around you and you realize everyone is different. I learned I don’t need to fit into a box, I can be who I am, it’s all okay. Because of my gay mom, I think I feel compassion for all and try to be kind to everyone, including those who are different or who I don’t understand.

How old were you when you found out your parent or relative was LGBT? How did you find out, or how were you told? How did you react?

  • Matthias: I was six or seven years old. After my parents divorced, my mother began a relationship with a woman. I don’t remember how I was initially told, but I was okay with it from the start. It was probably explained to me that sometimes men love men, and sometimes women love women (as was the case with my mother).
  • Indiana: I was very little when I realized it. It wasn’t so much that I remember being told but became aware and accepting of it. My parents divorced when I was around four years old and soon after my mom started seeing a woman who had two kids as well. Nothing seemed weird or unusual.
  • Caroline Shores, daughter of Del Shores: I was two years old when my father came out. I can’t recall how I was told or how I reacted because I don’t think a two-year-old can really understand a concept that big. But because I was so young, it’s all I ever knew and that is exactly the reason I am the way I am: accepting and understanding of all types of people.

Caroline Shores: Proud Daughter of Gay Dad

In addition to participating in the survey, Caroline Shores, daughter of Del Shores, was also kind enough to sit down with me and share her experience growing up with a gay father. For Caroline, “gay” was always around. Her father came out when she was barely a toddler, and she went to a very progressive elementary school in California, where she never had any problems since several other students had gay/lesbian parents.

In her words: “When I was twelve or thirteen, I went to middle school in Van Nuys, California, and that was the first time I started to see homophobia. My first experience with that was when I was having a slumber party for my thirteenth birthday. One of the girls told me yes, she was coming. A couple days later she said, ‘I’m sorry, but my dad won’t let me go because your dad is gay.’ I didn’t even know why that was an issue. It didn’t make sense to me. I went kind of ballistic on her, really huge fight, and [for the] first time ever, I felt hatred toward my family.

“It continued in that middle school. Students used expressions like ‘That’s so gay.’ Students called each other faggots. I would tell the principal and she would then have a lot of tolerance talks with the students. These kids were very rough. My next experience was in Spanish class. We had a family tree exercise and in my family tree I had my stepdad and my dad on the same side and had that written in Spanish. The teacher said during her presentation, ‘Oh, I think you got confused. That goes on the other side next to your mom.’ I go, ‘No, that’s my dad’s husband,’ and this kid, a boy (sorry, boys, but the consensus is boys are worse than girls when it comes to this) started making these really graphic comments in the back, like ‘faggot this’ and sexual comments. I stopped the presentation and said, ‘Can you come up and tell me that to my face?’

“He said, ‘You heard what I said,’ and I said, ‘No, come up and tell me to my face.’ The teacher was like, ‘Just continue,’ I’m like ‘No, let him come up and tell me to my face.’ “She made me go to the principal’s office.

“She didn’t really hear the boy. She just saw and heard me arguing with him. The principal suspended him. His mom called my mom and said, ‘We didn’t raise him that way, we’re sorry.’ There were consequences. It was shocking to me. I was blind to that kind of attitude.

“The progression in the last few years has been huge. Now, probably other people would have stood up for me, too, in that situation. It’s not acceptable anywhere. Best thing to do with bullies is stand up for yourself; they don’t like that. They want to pick on the weak. This is my family and I want to stand up for them. It’s an obligation, it’s not a choice. And it’s nothing to be ashamed of.”

I also asked Caroline about her experiences with being a child of LGBTQ parents and practicing a religion. She said, “I think that’s where the hatred really starts, with religion and what’s taught. I went to a Catholic school. I had a problem with one of the teachers who was so homophobic. In a private Catholic school, they can really do whatever they want. We have to sign a contract so the rules are different. I fought back and pulled out my evidence. Lately when I hear anything religious based and homophobic, I try to keep in mind these people are on the wrong side of history. They are the ones who are going to be looking stupid in the future. I chalk it up to ignorance, not knowing what they are talking about. It’s easier not to be offended this way because they don’t know any better and you really can’t change everyone.”

Another subject Caroline has had to school people on, besides religion, is the “It’s a choice” argument. Here’s how she handled it: “I have a male friend who inquired whether another male friend had a girlfriend, and I said, ‘No, he has a boyfriend.’ He said, ‘Whatever, it’s a phase.’ I go, ‘It’s not a phase,’ but he was like, ‘I mean, he’s choosing it,’ and he was so adamant about it. So finally, I asked him, ‘Okay. When did you choose to be straight?’ He was like, ‘Yeah, you have a point.’ A lot of the time that question does the trick of making people understand it is not a choice. Why would you want your rights taken away from you?”

When we discussed the benefits of having a gay dad, she said she considered it a blessing. “I wouldn’t be the person I am today without it. My dad has always been my rock, the person I look up to. Because I was two when my dad came out, my view of the world was always acceptance, always love. I was always prone to be friends with anyone different, like the nerdy kid or the kid who had no friends. It made me more accepting to everyone. I don’t know if I would have been that way otherwise.”

Caroline also made a good point about how much easier it’s becoming for gay people to come out, find support groups, and not feel as alone with so many online resources and social media providing immediate access to information. “There’s even a white rapper, Macklemore, with a gay anthem song [with Ryan Lewis] called ‘Same Love,’” she said. Since the hip-hop industry has been known for not being very gayfriendly, Caroline saw it as a huge step for a straight rapper to come out with a song like this. “That wouldn’t have happened even a few years ago. So much progress is being made.”

Sure enough, a few months after our interview, Macklemore performed “Same Love” on the Grammys telecast as Queen Latifah married same-sex couples and Madonna joined in with “Open Your Heart.” Caroline Shores is a wise and loving young woman, living proof that gay or not gay, Del Shores is an excellent parent.

By Sudi "Rick" Karatas

Sudi now lives in California but grew up in Syosset Long Island.  He is the cowriter of the feature film "Walk a Mile In My Pradas" (starring Tom Arnold, Dee Wallace, and Bruce Vilanch) and the upcoming "Charlie's Dream," an inspirational family film. He also writes songs, sketches, loves writing everything except checks. For more info on the author visit his website at www.rickkaratas.com

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