War Machine speaks out after suicide attempt: "I bitched out way too prematurely"

The ex-MMA fighter faces life in prison for the brutal attempted murder of adult film star Christy Mack

By Jenny Kutner
Published November 10, 2014 7:26PM (EST)
War Machine, mixed martial artist      (Las Vegas Police Department)
War Machine, mixed martial artist (Las Vegas Police Department)

Just over two months after the brutal attack on his ex-girlfriend, adult film star Christy Mack, former MMA fighter Jon "War Machine" Koppenhaver reportedly attempted suicide in his Las Vegas jail cell before being discovered by a corrections officer. After being found unconscious with a piece of linen around his neck, Koppenhaver -- who faces life in prison for the assault on Mack and her friend, Corey Thomas -- was resuscitated. Now, he's speaking out.

As Jezebel reports, Koppenhaver has been releasing messages via Twitter with the help of his brother, Michael, and has focused mostly on poetic declarations of his innocence as well as messages to his supporters. In his first statement since his suicide attempt, apparently written on Halloween, Koppenhaver decries his conditions but also concludes that he had "called it quits too early":

Never in my life have I been a quitter, and I know that my perseverance is the main quality which makes me appealing to fans...and I'll be the first to say that I bitched out way too prematurely. I'm sorry to all of my loved ones and supporters, this ordeal has just been hell on me. Everything was going so well and this shit just blindsided me. I guess I've just been fighting my entire life, and this time I just don't want to, I just want to be happy and relaxed for once...Fuck, I feel like I was right there, so close.

In a corresponding poem, Koppenhaver once again insinuates his innocence:

Why was I dealt this,
Horrible hand by fate?
Lured into the depths of hell,
With love as the bait. [...]

I have no recourse,
My hands are tied.
There is no justice in the world,
The gods have lied.

Koppenhaver is accused of beating Mack nearly to death after arriving at her house unannounced in August, when he discovered her with Thomas and reportedly began his rampage. According to a police report, Koppenhaver choked and punched Thomas before releasing him and threatening him not to contact the police, then went on to mercilessly abuse Mack until she was able to escape. The adult film star suffered at least a dozen and a half broken bones in her face and required extensive reconstructive surgery, including costly dental work and nasal repairs.

The Las Vegas Review-Journal reports Koppenhaver's attorneys were negotiating a plea deal prior to their client's suicide attempt. He faces life in prison without parole on 32 counts, including attempted murder, sexual assault, battery, coercion and first-degree kidnapping resulting in substantial bodily harm. His next court date is Nov. 14.

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